I just caught up on your thread. Its easy to give advice to others harder to apply to ourselves Maybe this can be filed under the school of hard knocks. Im maintaining my no contact just for me because i still have strong and positive feelings. Im not sleeping well either i wake up early all the time and then start analysing.
There has to be a way to let go and yet still be loving and open to reconciling and building a better marriage. Im using my counselling to focus on goals and improving myself.
Stick with it, your posts show your making progress and the ability to learn and recognise. We need to be happy and secure in ourselves. There are a lot of wiser DBers who express themselves better then i can
