Ghostbusting Round 5 Detaching my feelings

[ATPeace]

I thought I would start a new thread

Everything I am learning here is slowly sinking in

The hardest thing I have to do is detach my feelings from the woman that I have loved for the past 25 years I am not finding this easy I do n know if I need to start to hate her I do not know if I need to see her with another man I do not know if I need to see her hating me ....sh must be fairly close to this

I have been out in a couple of meet ups and did not really enjoy myself

She fired me remember this at the time she told me it was not enough housework and not enought time spent with the kids she says I spoke to the children bad and a couple of times I did loose my temper with my son and I did swear at him

Now she feels that I have been emotionally abusive over the course of our marrage and it is This that she is now standing by this and her best female friend that has also seporated after being with her partner for a simila length of time who is standing shoulder to shoulder with her telling her she has to be strong and that she has made the right decision.

For the oast 8 months since BD I have tried to find things to cling onto and try to improve Ghost to be a better husband and no matter what changes I make my w no longer cares she is done caring

She will be selfish
She puts herself first
She is detaching from me day by day
She is improving her business going for interviews
She is making new friends
She makes plans without me
She does not tell me her plans any more
She goes out when she likes and with who she likes
She goes clubbing with her girlfriend comes home at 2.30am
She is saving money to make her new life easier
She is working more and more to be away from the house

THIS is exactly what I need to be doing

The main different I see SHE no longer loves me so it makes the above a dam site easier

I cling to having her in the house with the children in the hope of rebuilding a family unit

We are so far from this point now that I can see no way to do this

So goals for this thread
Gym three times a week
Exercise every day even if it is go for a walk or ride my bike
Join slimming world
Go to at least two meet ups over the next two weeks
Play more tennis
Do more arround the house be a fun loving father to my children
Do my share of the chores

Over the next month I want to loose 12 lbs of weight

Must try harder
My whole life is about me not doing enough so now I must do more

Ghost