REALLY trying to detach...but GALing regardless!

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There is definitely an attraction. That's why he won't look at me when I'm there. Last time (when this all started) when I asked him why he wouldn't even look at me, he said "because I'll never want to stop." UGH! I don't doubt that he loves me and is attracted to me, he just won't let me in.

I have no idea what was the the IC this time. He has never been like that before. It was very upsetting. A lot of what he said, he had a point, but that doesn't mean that he's right about everything he said. And, it doesn't mean that you hit a depressed woman with all of it at the same time either. Good grief! I know he was just trying to get me to see things from his point of view because I said I didn't know HOW to let him go. But the thing is, I don't WANT to let him go.

I know my H isn't perfect, and he has issues to work through, but that doesn't mean I want to desert him just because he has problems from things that happened when he was younger. I love him and want to be there with him and for him and I want the same from him.