Time for a new direction

[mleigh4]

I hope you guys know how much you mean to me. You truly are precious friends to me. Thank you for your continued support through this never-ending internal struggle!

Tonight is S night with H. H TM me today saying he had 7 am meeting, can he bring S home tonight? I told him yes, no problem. I picked up S, told him, he pumped his arm and said, YES! I love these nights! Lol. I love knowing he loves home so much So I was just getting ready to head S over to H for his brief visit, H TM that he just left work and asked, since he will be home late, can we just switch nights to tomorrow night? He actually is already watching S tomorrow night while I go to a work event, so it makes sense. But he asked if he could come by to at least visit with S tonight? Hmmmm. That is new. So I joked back that Thursday night's are my chick show and wine night, but ok! I added that I am making tacos, that he is welcome to join. He said yes, with a blushing, smiling emoji....

I cooked. Having my MLC Toolbelt on, knowing the MLC'er can be very unpredictable and unreliable, S and I did not wait for H to eat. Sure enough, 80 minutes after his previous text, H TM that his boss asked him to get a bite to eat and talk, not to wait for him. He told me he was still coming by though...I told him, no worries, we already ate

About 1/2 hour later, he shows up, in regular clothes and his regular truck. For some reason I thought he came straight from work. Anyway, said he went to get coffee with boss, boss wants to train him, boss's wife is terminally ill and he doesn't know what will be going down in the near future. He invited H to attend a corporate function with him in Chicago the first week of April, which H pointed out, is during his Bday.

Now, I will admit, my first thought was, OMG, H is planning a birthday get away with some chick and making all this up! But immediately, that vanished to, why would he make up a story, he can do whatever he wants these days! Lol. It felt good to know that fear, that used to keep me up every night, washed right through me. Definite progress.

Anyway, I just STFU. He said he told boss he will let him know, didn't know if he wanted to be away on his Bday. I remained quiet and just listened.

So we continued to chat, he hung out with son for a bit, and was on his way. He saw a flyer for whale watching that I had printed out for son and I to do, asked when because he would like to go, told him I will let him know.

It was some time, a small connection with him, I needed that right now. A sign? A message from H in reaction to my message? Or just a random twist? Who knows.