7 months since BD today. Wow. Sometimes I wonder if WW is aware of this day.
I have not heard from WW or contacted her since the texts from last week. They did get my spinning though. Congrats WW. I really had/have the urge to reach out to her with something tonight but I will try to fight that off. I hurt myself playing hockey and have had to take a week off from the gym. The lack of working out really does affect my mental state. I will be back on Saturday no matter what.
I am just going to spew some thoughts. I think about that interaction last week. I believe her when she says she was dreaming about me, it *seemed* legitimate but even if that is true it does not mean anything I guess. If it was anything to take note of she would have made a more serious comment right?
That was the second time she made a comment about me not talking to her or me making it clear quickly that I did not want to talk. The other was around xmas. Yea, maybe it was a WW temper tantrum. I don't want to scare the squirrel off by running after it but I do not want it to think there is no food around either. Does that make sense? She needs to know there is a path back right? I bet she would say right now like she tried talking to me but I was not giving her the time of day. If she contacts me again, I think I'll have to come across more friendly.
So I guess for now I just keep going as I have been. I would have never predicted 7 months ago that I would be in this limbo state without divorce even technically being mentioned or discussed. I thought I was going to be divorced quickly. For a while, I was surprised every month that went by where she did not bring it up. Who knows where I'll be in another 7 months.
