Seeing less of my old shark image

[Underdog]

Seattle--Mr. W. would not appeal to me in spandex or a spandex thong. There might be laws against 43 year old men wearing them? One could only hope...

Meredith and Myrrh--Thank you for clarifying things for me today. It's nice to have a pinch hitter come in for me when I'm not able to bat myself.

Pattie--It's not necessarily the past MC sessions that have me wary. They were actually good in many ways. But you're right about the past having some bearing here. I really don't want the old Mr. Wonderful back. I want the new and improved version of him.

A guy who shows initiative to heal and a willingness to work for something worthwhile. I can handle fear and caution coming from him but not indifference. No more indifference--I've had a steady diet of that stuff for the past 2 years, and it stinks. It leaves a crappy aftertaste and makes me feel terrible when I subject myself to more than I should.

I deserve to be with a man who wants me. I think this is what you said in your post in different words, LNL. And I agree with you that I probably worded my counseling incorrectly right now:

I am seeking counseling for myself, regardless of the outcome.

Does that sound better?

There is victory and triumph awaiting me--and all of us, ocean friends. I will work on my end of the bargain to the best of my ability and put all my training here to good use!

That path is paved with bricks of patience, understanding, forgiveness, caring, sharing and a willingness to hear his truths about me and our marriage.

Go us!