I have nothing helpful to say. It truly is the most awful experience that one can go through and half the time I don't know how I am going to get through the day but then I just do. The other half of the time I am blissfully detached, feeling even better than I did pre-BD. So maybe I am becoming bi-polar. Just keep choosing the healthiest course of action for yourself and eventually the inner thoughts will catch up.
I don't know why purple mohawk hasn't seen your message yet. The party bus is eagerly waiting for you.
