Originally Posted By: Vanilla
It just is.

The ebb and flow, the flotsam and the jetsam.

Observe, smile and detach.

Just scrambled eggs for brains.

V


I am trying to live this, with varying degrees of success. Hard to not have expectations when I want so desperately to hope. Instead, I choose to work on myself. I CHOOSE not to be bothered when my wife says she'd like to go out for a girls night out. I CHOOSE not to read into every little thing she does.

Just a little mantra I thought I'd try out on myself. I think I'm going to need it tonight so I don't try and guess what's going on with her. Why does she seem depressed? Why did she seem cheerful last night after being on her phone?

You know what? I need to try to stop my inner dialogue. Maybe reminding myself I control how I choose to respond to her will help. I'll let you know in the morning smile

Me-38 W-38; T-15 M-12;
S10 and S6
BD - July 2016; EA confirmed; confronted Aug 2015
EA dissolved 12/2016

Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option - Maya Angelou