New night(s)

[kyrie]

Tonight is another night. Still thinking about things from my first post, like how I feel. Looking forward to Friday (tomorrow) when I can talk w/the DB coach again. Wondering how I can better prep for it....and still thinking about HIS advice: my H *thinks* its hopeless and that he knows me completely. That's got me thinking of all kinds of ways to throw him off, but most would come across as being spiteful or fake. UGH. I need more ideas, esp. since he's so intimately familiar with this type of stuff & smells it straight away.
On the other hand, my IC asked me to do that pro/con list of both staying and divorcing. That's got my head spinning about divorce impacts.... I don't like it but thinking about it makes me...think about it. Still gotta put that together and post it like I promised.