Doing better....Oh wait

[otw]

So interesting afternoon

I was going to surprise D7 at school and eat lunch with her.

I stopped at 7-11 to grab a drink then was going to head and get lunch for her and I.

I get back in truck and phone is ringing, it is W. I answered and she told me her and S4 saw me and he was making her turn around. they pull up and he runs up to me. I told him what i was doing and he told W he anted to go to D7 school for lunch. She said she was all sweaty from the gym and maybe next time. He replied,no I want to go with Daddy.

I looked up at her and told her if she is ok with it, i will drop him back off after. She said ok.

After lunch taking s4 back and he got all quiet. I asked what was wrong, and he said I just want to stay with you. I told him i understand, then he said he wants us all to live together again.
It is so hard trying to stay strong when they say these things.

So i was carrying up to the door and he kept saying for me to stay and play a little. He promptly asked W and she said ok.

I stayed and played while she showered. When she was done I was getting ready to leave.
She asked me where i was taking them this weekend. I let her know and some of the details. She had a strange look to her face, mind reading it looked like she probably wished I initiated more of these things in the past, but who knows.

So, at this point I said screw it and asked her where she was going. I know, i know.

She told me she is heading to FL for a fundraiser, i asked for Zumba or something? She said it is for a run. I was stunned. she has never done one before. I asked if her girlfriend from the gym got her into this and she said yea kind of. Don't know what that meant.

But i was excited for her and told her she will have a great time and as long as she wasn't too tired after should have a good time that evening.

As i was leaving I turned and told her to have a good time on the trip. She said ok and i will see you in the morning. She has to drop kids early at my place while she goes and teaches.
Overall, good interaction and most in almost a month.
I looked at her in the face and I still feel really strongly for her.

I hope i am showing her so much about being a different person that what she believed. I will have one last positive contact with her in the morning, then i am back to NC until S4 bday.

I know still too much about her, but this all just happened and I wanted to process it all, better to write it out here.