Need support navigating the change in my marriage

[G8r]

WW texted me for a 4th morning in a row. This time about whether or not I'm going to pick up D3 from day care because I told WW I had plans with D3 for tonight (going to circus) but I didn't mention anything about when. It didn't occur to me since circus starts at 7:30. I responded that I can get her. She replied that she can as well but wanted to know if I wanted to spend time with her. What does she think I will be doing tonight? So I responded I will get her.

She replied, thank you for communicating with me. I should have left that alone but I didn't. I asked her if she needed me to pick up D3 tomorrow just so I could thank her for communicating with me. Why do I do stupid things like that? I had been good for 3 days and then blow it my making a stupid comment like that. Time to dust myself off again, this DB stuff is hard. She finished that conversation by asking me for the 3rd time when I'm moving out. I ignored that comment since I told her the 1st time that I'm not moving out.

I'm also feeling bad because she mentioned that she'll be working on one of our bathrooms this weekend. I'd love to help and I wish it was a project we were working on together but asking her to help won't help my sitch. Only would get her angry. She's moving on without me regardless of what I do.

I know that I shouldn't be but I'm envious of the people on the board who have shot at R. I realize they have their own sets of problems but they have 1 thing that I want more than anything right now. A chance. Doesn't mean my WW and I would be able to R but that's what I feel I need for closure. I ignored WW for too long emotionally and physically without realizing it. Now that I realize that, it is eating me up to not be able to do anything.