Pink, thank you so much for your lovely post. I think you really captured so many of the feelings, dilemmas and possible outcomes. It is all rather unknown at the moment and I am trying to keep both the 'heal and move on' plus 'door open a crack' plates spinning. Time will tell and I have realised that we always need to consider the long term view in all that we do. As always it was lovely to hear from you (my 'over the pond' sis..)

Well, everything happened today. I got an email from H, plus a proposed settlement from the L. Email from H was all about admin and house stuff & extremely pleasant - saying how he especially appreciated a particular thing I had done etc. The settlement proposal was a little lower than expected with no rationale for being so. I reviewed all the figures from our disclosures and sent my L a revised proposal with rationale. All I did was look at our total assets, minus what we each came in with and 50% split the rest. This was what H had originally done and I'm not sure why this proposal was different. Anyway, I did it and despatched it - feeling calm and centred.

I replied to H's email, sending him a pic of me and my Mum as we had a celebration for her today. This is a departure for me as I've done nothing like that since we S. Of course, I am looking especially nice in the photo!! I find I can send things like this nowadays & stay very even emotionally. I just think - doh, I'll send it!

Tonight, I'm off to a pamper evening with my ladies social group. I'm having a make-up consultation for my 'treatment.' All proceeds go to charity and we've been asked to bring along a bag of essentials that will be donated to a domestic violence centre. Had a nice time out with the divorce group chums this week. I sat next to one of the guys and we had a long chat. It felt nice, and (whilst I'm not dating during 2016) I can see a positive future where I would enjoy some male company and dating etc. In fact, I think I'll be a much more confident me this time around!!

I'm in charge at the bookstore tomorrow, so it will be a busy one.. Take care all xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus