Lonely Hearts Club V

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Good morning MB. I get you on letting go of your husband. One of the unfortunate parts of all this is that these WAS manage to keep us hanging on in spite of the cruelty that they are inflicting on us. My wife told me several times that we had worked things out. The last time occurring in November of 14. She stated that I had said all of the right things and her counselor agreed with her. In January I was diagnosed with cancer and she was so loving and more affectionate than she had ever been. As soon as the cancer treatment started to make me sick she just closed off. I later learned that she had reconnected with OM at that point. From that point on my memory is very fuzzy and my life completely turned upside down.

I am glad that you are seeing your counselor. Try to not leave out many details because they need to get as complete a picture of your emotions as possible in order to help you. I promise that she has heard it all before and there is no reason to pretend while in there. The fact that you are still trying to get a glimpse of your husband is indicative of where you are in this process. It will pass and you will grow to recognize that there are tons of people who love you and that you are worthy of love and some day you will find true love. As for sleeping you should work with your doctor about that because they will work out a medication and dosage that will not hinder sleep.

You will survive this and you will be a better, smarter and happier person going forward. There is a little work involved however.

NYGal I must tell you that I met a girl at a football game. I went out with her a few times and it turned out that it wasn't a connection but who knows what will happen next time? I think that a part of GAL is that you will run into new people and experience new things and you will learn about yourself in the process. I meet girls everywhere I go. I have met my favorite girl here on DB. It's kind of crazy that we live on separate continents but it is a real connection and we care deeply for each other. So who knows? Bottom line get out and do things that you love and do a few things that you have never done before. I have got to tell you that I hate where I am but it can also be an incredible amount of fun. And it will get better.

Praying for both of you and hoping that we all find some peace today!