HMC, there is always a way to come back. Read Sandi's rules and reread Zues's comment. To truly DB, you have to live and breathe it every second of the day. Yes, you messed up...but we all have and many right at the beginning. Just pick yourself up and try again. It's all we can do.

I know where you are right now is not a good place, but you will get stronger and more calm as you act "as if". You can do this!

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M 46 / H 43
T 24/M 18
S 4
11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY
1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom
1/8/2016 H moved out