Thank you so much for sharing those 3 stories Irish. They show that there are so many different endings to these situations. I am really struggling with letting him go. I love him and miss him so much. Missing him seems crazy when he is here almost every day to see the kids, but it is not the same. I know he isn't here to see me and there are no smiles, no hugs and having no contact through texts like we used to do when we were apart feels like it is killing me. I want to text him so badly. Then there is the fact that when he does text about coming round to see the kids there is the larger than life lack of an X on the end. Who would have thought that a simple letter X not being there could hurt so much. I wonder how the people that don't come to sites like this handle the situation? They know nothing of going dark etc.
I also wonder what other people's families say and what they think about our situations. My family seem to think I'm crazy for wanting anything more to do with H after everything he has done and are furious with him for what this is doing to the children.
I have been pondering the whole thing for days now and I just don't see how I can get past my current state of mind whilst I still see H almost every day. Reminding me every day that he doesn't love me.
