Thank you all for your answers and support so far. Much appreciated.
Sandi, I have read your story several times and I guess you were one of the people I looked forward to hearing from the most. I have read most of the links already before posting. I guess I look to you for that side of the fence. I know that every individual is different but your position and experience is closer than my own.
Cristy, I am being cautious and i do believe at the moment she is cake eating. She has the comforts of being at home and being able to kiss the kids goodnight every night without doing anything for the relationship.
I will add some other information, currently her father health has been declining and my W had a cancer scare but was clean. I have felt that some of this could be a MLC also.
The main reason I had for posting is to find the support in dealing with the fluctuations of emotions she seems to be living on. For example, the other day she got home from work and almost bypassed the kids to come tell me about some 'bombshell' news with this huge smile on her face. After telling me she then left to go have a meeting for this apartment she wants. After the kids were in bed, the mood was quiet as I left for the gym. Once I was back, she asked if I had a good workout and told me she got the place for March. I only answered ok and said goodnight.
I do feel she is testing me regularly and going to the gym 3 times a week and biking to work has been my life saver. I have also given myself a goal of running a half marathon in April.
I am working hard at re-finding my real self, I feel so much better in myself and my family and friends have seen it too. I will continue the path I have set myself on for me and my kids.
