Feel so upset today and have burst into tears as soon as I got home. I just miss H so much. He used to text me all the time throughout the day (and evening if he was at work) and the whole time just feels so empty without him doing that. I don't even get my phone out at break or lunch anymore - I know there will be no messages. H was the only person who contacted me by text. I wonder how he stands it. He was the one who initiated almost all of the texts - surely he must miss that too? I could cry every day when I see all my colleagues on their phones and mine is forever silent. Tired of every little thing making my heart ache. Wish I was as good at detaching as H clearly is.
