Well, she came to drop off some money she owes me today. I can sense that she has no feelings for me at all, but I remain positive. I have accepted the reality that there is about 0% chance that I will be able to reconcile with her, there is nothing in her heart for me. That's not to say that I have given up hope, but my main focus is still myself. Her license came through yesterday, so she should start working her 150k / year job on Monday. I can't help but be proud of her achievement with the career. I am sad that it is not part of out future we planned for that last 3 years though. I have been doing so great coping with the emotions of this but it certainly stings a bit when I see her in person and she has no care for me at all. Quickly channeled that anxious feeling into extra motivation for a quick workout though I came to this forum for hope, but as I continue to focus on self and GAL, I have a new hope for my future. I really feel that in a couple years, I will be able to offer a great relationship to the right person - someone who would never betray or deceive me, or break out marriage vows.
M 43 W 45 M 10.5 T 15 S 26 D 17 (previous relationships) ILYB 12/25/15 + asks for D Confirm affair 1/10/16 W has D ready to sign, but agrees to wait for refinancing to go through (I get a house!)
I came to this forum for hope, but as I continue to focus on self and GAL, I have a new hope for my future. I really feel that in a couple years, I will be able to offer a great relationship to the right person - someone who would never betray or deceive me, or break out marriage vows.