A new way of thinking 2

[Di-mond]

Hi girl!!! Just wanted to tell you I'm thinking of you.

I totally get the whole dilemma about your chronic illness. My H really doesn't accept the fact that I have a chronic disease and no matter what I will always have it. I might feel great and then I might get a flare-up. For the most part you can't see my illness on the outside and everyone things I look great and healthy, but I'm not. It's complicated and frustrating. I wish I could pretend I'm not sick and sometimes I do, but sooner or later it will smack me in the face again. I know sometimes even in my immediate circle of friends and family, some think it's all in my head. My H and his mother were taken a bit back when I was finally approved for long term disability benefits. They both thought I should return to my job or work somewhere else.

Anyways, I'm rambling here. Judy, stress is the worst for chronic auto-immune illnesses. You have had more stress than even I can imagine. You need to figure out a way to lessen that stress. I still think absolutely no contact with H is important. Also, for most DBers GAL activities are vigorously recommended, but when you are in the middle of a fibro flare-up GAL is getting out of bed. Don't push yourself. Stay in bed for a few days until you feel better, or a week. Whatever it takes!!

Forgive yourself for not being able to do all the things that you think you should do. I know that is a hard one!!

*hugs*