It's all blowing up

[otw]

Rich
I know the feelings looking around. I won't sugar coat this. As having a childhood like this I feel the pain of divorce and wish I didn't grow up that way as I missed my dad, but i was also 6 hours away from him.

I know this affects my kids, but I think they handle it quite well. Please be there for them, but don't let that fear hold you too hard. I had that bad for a while.

I look back now and I do believe while yes I was worried about them a lot, I was also using them as a crutch for me not wanting to accept the reality of what was happening to me as well.

I feel I have held on to a lot of hope for maybe too long. I am trying to come to terms with this is over. I don't want to feel the way I do anymore and I am trying to navigate that path.

The kids will know what their lives were like and who played what role. All we can do is make sure we shine for them, not over any one, but for them.