Lonely Hearts Club V

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Hello all. Here again starting a new thread. A little sad to still be here but happy to have my friends here. Really fighting to move forward these days. I'm lonely and unmotivated. I am having a hard time making myself go to see my attorney. I just struggled to spell attorney. Spell check kept forcing me to re-type it. Thank God for spell check or I would look like the idiot that I am! I long for the longer days of summer and resent the long nights of winter. Sad about my grandmother. I guess I was too busy to really grieve her death in May. What can I do to get myself moving? I do some form of GAL every day now but the minute I stop I am sad. My friends can't understand why I don't want to date yet. I am anxious about my upcoming pet-scan. This lump in my throat makes it hard to swallow. My respite from the dry mouth was a little too short lived. Hoping that it will return soon. Doctor says that any sign of function from salivary glands is very encouraging.

I keep wanting to type; On a lighter note........but can't seem to come up with anything. Oh here's one! My workout is going great. Adding weight and reps to all stations now. Starting to look pretty good without a shirt on. I am determined to be stronger than I was pre-cancer. A lot stronger! I am pretty focused on getting to the gym these days. Yoga is fun. Pretty crowded in there because of the New Years resolutions. It will thin out soon and only the people who are serious about being fit will still be coming. My chest and arms are very tired tonight after lifting. And that's a good thing.

I haven't been to the symphony in a while and I miss it. I wish Rouky was here to go with me. That is one girl that I would date! Hmm what will I take her too? I think I will take her to see The Magic Flute. If anyone is attempting to analyze me the queen of the night is in my view the hottest woman ever. I think I should ask my therapist about that one.

Ok. Time to take my happy pill. Sure hope that baby isn't expired! God Bless you all and pray for a clean bill of health for me next month. I love you all!