asambandha

[Mona52]

Something clicked tonight. Words I have heard here many times. I have only thought these words. I have said these words but have not felt these words. Words you all know. I must work on myself,evolve, grow, become well balanced. Not to pursue my wife. I get it know, I feel it.

I have said those words so many times. As a instruction, as a next step, as a wish. That will never do it. I had to detach enough to understand what it means. I want now to evolve to my greatest potential. For me, so she can see me at my finest, not to be something she may desire. Authentic me, at the top of my game. It's important to me, for her to see me transforming, not as important is that she chooses me over divorce.

I don't see how anything else will work. I am so happy to be detached enough to feel it. I think newbies struggle with the process not being fast enough but until you realize you can simply let go of your problem, it is hard to make progress.

I think my struggle to post here was a indicator that I was transitioning to this new plateau. I had nothing really to say anymore about my wife this, my wife that. I am now free, free to be me.

What will you replace these words with? If you are not talking and thinking about your W and her actions, what will you be doing now? It is impossible to let go of that without having something to fill those hours with. Remember, actions speak louder than words. Detaching is an action, but the world will only see it when you do other things. I have lots of suggestions you will never take, lol. So what nice, wholesome things will you be doing?