i sat around tonight praying to let me forget her or get her out of my mind and heart.

The thing that is making me mad is I am fine when I am on my own and out GAL but the time i should be happiest when I am with my kids is when my mind races the most. This makes me so mad because this is when I should be the happiest.

I know my posts have been about her a lot lately, but believe me my life is busy. i will force a change by only posting about my busy life for a while. And I may need a break as well from posting.

I know I come here to vent and look for help, but I think i am also looking for success stories and that golden ticket that doest really exist.

I am tired now and want to get my thoughts fully together before posting more.

thanks for those that check in on me

M 37
W 34

T 12
M 8
D 7
S 4

Need break 4/12/15
W no ring 7/7/15

Separate room 4/12/15
Separate living suggested 8/15
W moved out 11/1/15