[BrightFuture]

I hear you Irish, about not wanting to manage W’s affairs. I don’t mind H still being on the same policy. We normally pay for the entire year, so it is a one-time deal every year. I get the bill, inform H about his portion, offer him a choice (either pay me the money or cancel it and get his own policy.) Every year he chose to stay, LOL.

Here is what I wanted to post. My dreams recently.
Progression of dreams… A few months ago these dreams started… They are all in some kind of weird setting, nothing that would resemble anything in reality. The first dream had H in it, still cold and distant, but not going anywhere, kind of sticking around. I think we were at some bar or something like that. Then there were a couple of dreams where H looked so much in pain and even expressed that pain… But, still looking away from me… Then there were a couple of dreams where H was more relaxed around me, still not showing much interest thought. The last dream was just a couple of weeks ago, where H was very relaxed and wanted to be intimate, LOL.

Not sure what to make out of these… I’ve been trying to work on myself to actually let go of H and accept the things the way they are. After last H’s visit, I’ve been trying to prepare myself for the bog D. I still catch myself on a thought that all of this is just so surreal, that we still have a connection, blah, blah, blah… And, we still have a connection, actually. I realized that as much I’m hesitant to sever the last ties, H has been doing the same. Some if is because the complicated financial and legal matters, like our condo. But, other things… he could do himself. Like the car insurance, or XM radio subscription, or AAA subscription, etc.

Speaking of connection… Received an e-mail from H today, forwarding the message from QB about quarterly filing reminder: “Hi Bright, do you get these same quickbooks updates and reminder things, or is it helpful when I pass them on to you? He actually asked me if he should forward these e-mails to me, hahaha. What a nice guy! For a long time he was just forwarding them to me without a word. I guess he’s got his “thinking” hat on. He could have just went ahead and changed the e-mail in our QB account, since I’m handling the taxes and filings anyway. Oh, wait, did I say "thinking hat". Maybe too soon, LOL.

Today is H’s birthday. I sent him a card in the same mail with his driver’s license last week. Not sure if picked up the mail yet. I also decided to call today. He didn’t pick up the phone, so I left a short message. A few minutes later I got a text from him. “Hi Bright, thanks for the Bday message. I have been working on the condo so I’m in and out and not getting to the phone in time. Thanks again”. I replied with a smiley face, a B-day cake and a beer glass emoticons. This is kind of 180 for me, as in the past I would be more reserved, if replied at all. Don’t know if he’s been working on the condo for some time now, hence no decision on car insurance. Like job said they can only do one thing at a time. Or, he was trying to keep himself busy today, on his B-day. Well, knowing that friends and family would probably be calling him all day, he decided to be in and out, so he could not get to the phone in time, LOL.

I don’t know if I have a biased opinion, but all H’s communication with me sounds so “thoughtful” recently. Like he is this mister nice guy. Confuses me a bit, makes it a bit harder to detach, distorts the picture of an MLC H. I’m not going to dwell on this though. Whatever it is, H is still continuing to live the life he chose and moving on with it. So, I’m going to continue to move on with my life and my plans.