hang in there otw... fake it till you make it. I know it is easy to say but you cannot control what she does, so there really is not much of a point of worrying about it. I think it is normal to have some set backs. We all spin now and again.
I know it is tough with the children for you but anytime you think of her for too long can you do something physical? In the earlier days for me, I would run or go to the gym, still do. It really works well for me. I guess it is just about finding that thing to take your mind off of it. Another thing that I found was that if I was hanging around here too much, it seemed to kind of stunt my progress in terms of detaching. I was reading so much on here, it kept me connected to her in a weird way. I had to take a break for a while.
