I'm sorry you had to make the call to your g/friends, but I do think it was a wise decision considering the fact that you didn't all enough money stashed away for the trip at this time. There will be another time to go w/them and you will be feeling much better by then (hopefully).

I didn't want to mention sugar to you because I didn't want to bring you down on all of those "good" things we like to add to our diet. Try to reducing the amount of each of the items and start drinking more water and see if that helps some. I know that when I reduced all of them, my "joints" felt better.

I hope that your h finishes baking up and make a move toward reconnecting completely. It does take a long time for this to happen and generally people get so discouraged the opt for moving on and leaving the crisis people in their rabbit hole.

Again, please take care of yourself.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.