I just caught up.... Vern and Brian! You've been busy! Sounds like fun!
Me: 32 W: 29 T:8 M: 6 D4 S2 M - 8/2008 W is not happy - 1/2014 W wants D - 9/2014 W moved out - 11/2014 D filed - 1/23/2015 D'ed - 2/25/2015 Gave X the Letter - 11/10/2015
Sadly I let go of Vern this morning, lol. Not that I ever had Vern. I have a full full full day today and I am beyond nervous. I have a ton of actual work, and some work for the publisher I want to turn in today. But I feel overwhelmed so I have been reading R articles instead. Bad girl Mona!
Time to untangle thoughts here and buckle down to work. BTW, If there is an auto mechanic in the house...
I just replaced my break light, I can see it works. Break, turn signal, reverse all work. But my warning light keeps popping on. I have a Kia Rio. Could their possibly be some kind of reset switch you have to hit when you change a bulb????
Hope you are all well and mentally preparing for V day. It will svck.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
Hi Mona just catching up on your escapades. Have you looked at the owners manual? You could call the dealer and ask the service dept. Sorry I don't have an easy answer for you. Be well
Hi all. So sorry I have neglected my online activities for a few days! I am a single mom of three, so when everyone is stuck in the house I have very very little free time.
Me, the kids and my mom made it through the storm. We got 37 inches. They cancelled the dance on Friday before a single snow flake fell. I wont lie, I was petrified of being locked up all weekend. I went to a friend's house for a bit on Friday with a group of people and had a wonderful time.
Then the snow hit and I was trapped with my crazy mom and my kids. I had GREAT GREAT fun with the kids. We bought 2 new video games and we played and made cookies and I knitted a scarf, lol. I also got a ton of housework done and cooked enough food for 3 armies.
I was very annoyed by Sunday because I was the only person lifting a finger. No one else will do anything unless I tell them to. My mom is the worst. She is beginning to just tell me what she wants me to cook as soon as I walk downstairs anymore.
Plus, she just has no morals or ethics and we fight constantly because I wont scr3w people over. She looks for ways where I can lie to this person to get this or fake that person to get that. And my kids see it all.
Jerkface never checked on the kids once. However, he sent a text to my D on Saturday saying her cell phone was going to get shut off because he cant afford the bill. LOL. Yeah, like he would let the phones get shut off. How would he contact OW? He is such a liar.
Sunday we were all ready to go to the dance. It was a very large group of us for once because everyone was tired of being locked indoors. Chris was going to be at the dance and I was excited to see him. An hour before the dance was supposed to start, they cancelled it. So I was stuck at home.
Last night I went to see Chris at his house and it was magical to finally be able to get away. He did not ask me to do one thing for him. No cooking, cleaning, no fixing things, no buying things, no taxi driving him anywhere. We sat quietly and watched some UFC fights and there are no words to describe how nice it was. I gave him a pile of homemade cookies and he did not complain about them. He raved about them. Yeah, I know, bizzaro world. I drove home early this morning and the radio said their were over 200 reported accidents along the ice covered roads. If I would have known how bad the roads were, I would have just stayed at his house today. It took 2 hours to get home, but I did not slide off the roads once.
I was congratulating myself this morning about how I was living fine without H. I only think of him once every 2 or three days and I never contact him. When I do think of him, I feel sad because it is too late for him. I will never take him back.
Then, out of nowhere this morning I had to contact him. It svcked! My D was in the next city over. I took her there to a sleep over last night. She said to pick her up tonight at 8 PM. Well, it turns out she was not allowed to stay there that long and they needed her to be picked up by 3:30, but I work until 4:30 and I work an hour away from where she is.
My mother's car is in the garage. So I had to call him. I left a voice mail and I dont want him to have a recording of my voice. He picked her up, if you can believe that. But I felt gross because I had to call him. Then I had to say Thank You. I had to thank him for picking up his daughter. I forced him to see his three kids on christmas and nothing but that text on Saturday since then. Nothing. And I had to thank him for picking her up.
This snow storm has put me behind in almost every area of my life. The good news is that when the pressure is on, I feel I do my best so I am excited about all I will get done this week!
I think I am about 10 days away from finishing my Master's Degree classes. Then I only have my capstone paper left. That is a terrifying prospect!
I spoke to a guy about becoming a sales person for me. This guy is a natural born sales person. And he needs cash, which is very very good for me! I only need 10 to 20 customers to completely change my world. It could mean an extra $4000 per month. I would not have to worry about caring for the children anymore and I would not need jerkface for anything.
Now, I just need to keep talking to him about what I need and hopefully he is excited as I am. He already offered a few ideas on how to make it better. I am not asking for a lot. Just a handful of businesses that want to hire their own personal hacker to make sure their business computers cant get hacked. It is a much needed service, except business owners dont really know they need it until it is too late.
I am killing it at my job right now. Ever since I heard about impostor syndrome I have been stopping myself when I feel like I dont deserve credit. I am now able to see when I am good at something and dream how I can do even bigger and better things like that. I feel like i can do practically anything some days, so I just start working and before I know it, the project is done and great.
This Friday the normal place I go to is closed... grrrr.... but we are all going to a country and western bar. To me, this is pretty funny. I grew up a headbanger. If you dont know what that is, it is a heavy metal, hard rock type of gal. I could never bear to listen to country and western music. Pickup trucks running over dogs and guys drunk on the day their mamma was released from jail, lol.
Anyway... I have been dancing with Brian on Friday nights and I love it, but he prefers country music. Also, Chris constantly has country music on, in almost every room when I visit him. I dont usually like to do anything half way, so I have been drowning myself in stupid country music for 2 weeks now. That way I cam be interested in the things the guys are interested in.
Out of the blue, my friends decide to hit a country and western bar this friday. In the past I would have been horrified. But now I think I will be ok. I just hope they dance 'normal'
I have big big things happening between now and the last day of March. When you bend your knees before you go to bed, any tiny prayers would be much appreciated.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
----------------------------------------------- Well, no deed of mine, no matter how big or small goes unpunished. H, of course, tried to piss me off in the only way he has left. It worked, he did piss me off, but I am not angry enough to react.
I had to ask jerkface to pick up my D today because she was stranded while I was at work.
He texted them on Saturday telling them he was shutting off their cell phones. So D15 gets in the car and he says
"Im sorry I cant call you guys any more, or text you guys anymore. The only thing I have to offer you is water. Your mom takes 60% of my money so I cant invite you to my house."
The man gives me way less than $10,000 a year for 3 kids. Like thousands less, not hundreds.
He works a ton of overtime and makes a decent paycheck.
How can he say that to my D?
Again, I am not mad enough that I am reacting in any way. I am just venting here and by the time I press submit, I will have put it behind me.
My mind has already moved on to the possibility of meeting new people on Friday
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
