Yes, I have noticed she has been taking up a lot of my posts lately. I ma not sure why. I have a few possibilities. 1. maybe the dreams are bringing her to the front of my mind. 2. i think the fact that for the first time i am dealing with the fact that i think she is really dating someone.
If i have to guess it is more of the second. I was preparing myself to spend time with her when we have to do stuff for S4 bday. I actually was getting mentally prepared after what transpired this past weekend. Then in an email about details on the party she mentioned about going out of town this weekend and wouldn't be back for normal swap time.
no mention of where, who anything. Just that if i had something to do her best friend could watch kids until she is back. Right, like i am going to do that!
I had planned a trip for me and the kids as well this weekend, but of course I get sent spinning a bit.
I think another thing i am dealing with is the fact that I am basically supporting her lifestyle. Nothing I can do about it, but she is blowing through the savings we split and the money I have to give in support each month. meanwhile she has not attempted any other work.
I know there is nothing I can do on this level and need to let things go, but I am dealing with all of these as firsts right now and need to let the emotions run the course.
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
