It's all blowing up

[rich4j]

Sandi2

thx....i realize it would be great to control what my D thinks and how she reacts to this all but I just can't.

It is too exhausting. I am physically exhausted (lost about 10 lbs ) and mentally....almost hit a van the other day being in a fog. Shoveling out of 30in snow didn't help either with my STBX in the house ready to jump at any inequity she saw for the day

She calmed down a bit today and started sending me emails of our on/off weekend plans sharing time with our D and getting away over the next few months which means maybe she understands she can't throw me out for now or run with my D

Papers are coming she told me so I guess this is for real. Those who have gone thru this can probably feel my angst coming thru the computer.