I'm having such a hard time right now. I can't stop crying. I miss my friend, so much. I miss my lover, my confidant...seeing H all the time, and those cold, cold eyes...it's just tearing me up inside.
I know I'm not the first to go through this, nor will I be the last, but right now? I am so very sad, and struggling with it all. I'm having a health problem right now, which is definitely making everything feel so much worse - but these feelings of sadness are always around.
I don't know how people manage to move on - but they do, all the time. I'm trying to find comfort in that, as well as the knowledge that this will pass - these feelings of extreme sadness.
I hear you - I need to stop watching H and trying to figure it out. It is what it is - my marriage is over, has been over since BD. It's just so hard...
