Thanks so much. I left and he just keeps denying it. He left me a VM saying that its clear that I wont change because I counted the condoms and that I am wrong for that. That he saw spending money on the cam girls meant he left me and the kids without and he feels like sh!t over it and has tried to. Start making that up to me. That me counting the condoms and looking at his phone (in the past) is crazy and he doesn't need a mother. If I want to be his partner then that is what he wants but not his mother.
Then texts saying he has been faithful. "I love you and hope you believe what I am saying to you"...."please unblock me from calling you I shouldn't have to talk to your VM" "I swear that I have not cheated on you. Have a good day love"
So yeah, I need AWAY from him and his crazy. Seriously. He thinks by avoiding and his weak "no idea were the condoms went babe" he will be okay.
Unfortunately his mother took a turn for the worse and she may not have long. So he left me a VM not 5 minutes ago saying we have to make a trip home to see her. So that she can see the kids before anything happens.
I'm devastated about his mom and I will call him about it later. But as I told MB. For some reason I am okay. I'm not crying, I don't have that punched in the gut feeling I did early this morning when I realized what he had done.
Maybe it will hit me later. Maybe not.
Thanks to all of you. Without this board and you guys I am not sure where I would be. I've messed up a lot. Like so badly but knowing I have you guys to vent to and lean on makes it better.
You all are my lifeline to sanity.
And I'm not sure what I need. Just what I don't need. More lies.
The most I can do (which is a huge 180 for me) is what I have done since I spoke to him before I left. Not berate him for it. Just told him it would be nice to have the truth for once. And not contact him at all unless its important. Like his mom.
And when I call about her I will be getting off as soon as I have the information. And if he brings this up I will just say that I don't want to talk about it. Because really, what's the use in talking when he will lie and deflect? None as far as I can see.
