Hey MB. I am at his place. I was ignoring him for a while because I was so upset. My GF reminded me that he may be Fing up now but he has always taken good care of me and our kids and to give him the money. And if he uses it for anything other than tires A..I would know if I check his account and B that is something he has to live with. Just to be sure to be at his job on payday to get it back before he has time to spend it.
I am at his place now. I can't sleep. Before bed we had a discussion, I didn't argue which is new for me. Anyway he had cologne out and a dress shirt and his dress shoes. I asked him where he had gone. He said no where. When i pointed out why I asked he said he had planned to go out but decided against it. With work friends.
That he understands why I don't trust him but the worst thing he has done is the cam girls and has not seen or met anyone. He has been "faithful'.
He went to bed. And guess what? There are condoms right here by his tv. Not even sure how I missed them. So I went to his dresser where he had kept them before (after PA when we started having sex again-I bought them) and there are 2 missing. Plus 2 new condoms....a different brand. And the smallest pack comes in 3. So he has cheated again. Why am I shocked and upset?
I know. Because he convinced me after his PA endes that he would never do that again.
He is snoring away. Didn't even stir when I put the light on and opened and closed the dresser drawer. I am just sitting here. Trying to decide if I should leave or wake him up or wait until morning.
I just can not believe this is my life. I feel like if I wasted so many years and love on the wrong man.
