Time for a new direction

[mleigh4]

Hi all, time for a new thread.

Dropped off S with H tonight. Usually H comes right out, tonight he did not. Got S stuff together from my truck, as S was getting out, he asked, why hasn't daddy come out yet? I said, maybe he did not hear us drive up? S said, oh yes he did, he has a thing set up over there that beeps when someone drives in....

OMG, my husband has gone crazy. What if he has set up some gadgets around here to see what is going on at the house??? Ok, trying not to be as paranoid as him.....

I will take some time to process and think, but I am definitely feeling some big changes happening in me. With it being one year since H moved out, with not one single change, I am doing some deep soul searching. I would love to say, here is to another year of limbo, but I am just not feeling it.

I am feeling some sense of urgency to change this....I am going to try to quiet myself down in hopes of slowing down from making a left turn ahead to "doneville"