A new way of thinking 2

[mustardseed]

Ancaire, I am just catching up. Great news about court! That disaster will finally be behind. you. As for the emotional roller coaster. Trust me--I know. Everyone keeps telling me that when it is all over I will be so much better, but right now the limbo, the games, and the hold he still has over me due to the money and kids, and the molasses speed in which this broken system seems to move makes it really hard to trust that I am actually going to make it to the other side.

Faith is all we have, and when that is faltering the best we can do is just count our current blessings to try and move forward. We now have awareness. We now have started to get pieces of ourselves back that we lost to our narcissistic H's. I'm alive--more alive then I have been in years, and that is good. I liked the security that I used to have when I was in denial--because right now I am so sad, scared, and angry--but I like the sense of self that is starting to reawaken. I will never give that up to anyone ever again.