It's all blowing up

[rich4j]

Thanks....

My life a few months ago was turned upside down & it feels even worse right now. I have come to terms obviously that this is coming to an end. Forever? Don't really care right now as I can't think about anything but this is toast and deal with it in that mindset.

I am not going to show my inner sadness, anger or resentment anymore. Accept reality, be OK with it outward ,and figure out how I move forward with my life.

IT is ALOT to process (living, $$$, daughter, dogs, work, life) especially with a STBX that is on high alert , filing and wants to push me out the door asap

I know this will hit me hard soon and just have to prepare for the huge wave of sadness.

I just don't want to rush this with my daughter and have read how to tell your child about divorce & have asked my STBX that we need to go talk with a counselor first on this and not tell her too soon or too late

This is so hard. I closing my eyes hoping its a bad dream ....