It's all blowing up

[rich4j]

Before the holidays I was getting to a much better place overall and then the bomb of D was dropped.

Today has put me back there in terms of being in a fog, feeling like I am going to vomit and just lost.

I will take my L advice and continue to DB although it really is just for me now even more than before. Stay calm and think of my D. I can't wait to hug her when I get home tonight and put her to bed.

She is with me this weekend as my STBX (i think I did that abbreviation right? I need some humor today) will be going to Boston to see her divorce friends and will plan to have a great wekeend with my D and dogs.