So i just needed to vent a bit last night. I will not break the NC. I gave myself the entire month of January. As of right now I am thinking that i need to take it further. I know S4 bday is in the beginning of Feb and we will be round each other for a few things with this. I will have to put on the game face and be more than prepared for this. I really don't want to spend the time with her, but we have one thing that is just the 4 of us.
On another note, she managed to get a fifth day in a row in my dreams. I remember all of this one. She was cold towards me and i just laughed it off in the dream and moved on with what i was doing. I still knew the feeling hurt but kept going.
D7 looked at me last night and I guess i just had a weird look to me. She said you look sad. I told her just thinking about stuff. She is too smart, she looked at me and said Mommy? I didn't want to lie to her so I told her sure and then proceeded to tell her a bunch of other things as well.
I need to do a better job around her which i typically do. She is way to insightful.
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
