I doubted, but I'm certain this is MLC

[Irish M]

The weirdest thing happened. After I found out I'll likely be okay, it suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks - my beloved H had cheated on me. He's treated me cruely and with contempt. He's walked out on our family.

The reality just slammed into me - I'll never, ever be the same again. I've been crying on and off for days, and sick with it, too. I was doing so very well, so it's something of a disappointment to be struggling so much again.

Hi Ancaire
I've gone through this emotion many times. It's normal to question how could they do this to us. Lack of respect and no empathy to our feelings. Most of us and I mean most of us had no clue this BD was going to happen. We trusted our spouse with our hearts and soul. That is what hurts the most.

Your H seems a lot like my W. Mood swings and trying to be my friend until she snaps again because I don't fall into her master plan of Lalaland and gumdrops.

I personally won't be her friend. No need to be because she can't give me what I want from her.

I wish you continued strength and remember they have their journey and they will go through many stages. Us the LBS have so many stages as well. Don't fight them. The hurt and pain, the shock, acceptance and then back to hurt. As you travel your path it will be better. You will be stronger. I hope your H path crosses yours at the end of it all

Hugs
Irish