My body pillows have replaced H. I always slept with one anyway, but now I have added one behind my back to make up for the fact there isn't a person to lay next to.
I do miss having someone else to sleep next to, but it's been so long at this point, I've adjusted and am starting to wonder if I could go back to sharing my space. I've kind of grown to like having the whole king sized bed to myself. Life changes and we adjust, whether we want to or not.
It seems a lot of us are down today. I just want to cry and cry. I can't believe this all has happened. I want to have hope for a reconciliation, but the days and hours just drag by. On Friday my boss gave me a stern warning about crying at work. Sometimes it just seems hopeless. If I lose my job I don't know what I'll do.
I used to have a full and busy life and now I'm just a mess.
I have to remember: the affair can't last if she already has "major concerns". We had such a sweet and tender relationship and we loved each other deeply. We will get another chance. I have to believe these things or I don't know how to keep getting up every morning and trying. And I have to keep getting better. I have to.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
Oh NYGal, you sound so like me in your thoughts and struggles. It is just awful, no other way to describe it. These are dark days indeed. Just want you to know you're not alone. (((((((NYGal)))))))
I feel you. I was the same way. Had a full busy life. Good balance of friends, vs family vs couple time and now it is just so hard to stay busy and keep hope alive. It's so hard for me to believe that so many great people like us are struggling this way. Everyone says they just want someone to love them unconditionally and be faithful. Bull spit they do.
Keep your head up. We have to keep pushing.
Me:34 W:33 R: 15 years M: 7 years W moved out: 11/21/15 BD: 11/20/15 - ILYBINILWY, PA once LRT: 12/14/15
It seems a lot of us are down today. I just want to cry and cry. I can't believe this all has happened. I want to have hope for a reconciliation, but the days and hours just drag by. On Friday my boss gave me a stern warning about crying at work. Sometimes it just seems hopeless. If I lose my job I don't know what I'll do.
I used to have a full and busy life and now I'm just a mess.
I have to remember: the affair can't last if she already has "major concerns". We had such a sweet and tender relationship and we loved each other deeply. We will get another chance. I have to believe these things or I don't know how to keep getting up every morning and trying. And I have to keep getting better. I have to.
Sorry NYG...and it can't help that your boss had that talk with you. But you are getting better. You've gone out multiple times and have had moments of genuine fun. This crap is hard. We cry, we fall. But at least we're trying.
Think of those poor souls having this happen to them without ever having found Divorce Remedy, MWD and this BB.....they have no hope, no plan and no one that knows exactly what theyre feeling and going through. We at least have those things. We all have eachother:)
I hope today is a better day for you.
Rain
Rain (moi): 40 Ex Fiance: 39 3 kids On/off again EA & PA Last BD by ow 12/15 Moved kids and myself back into our own place: 12/15
Rain is right. You've come far in a short amount of time and you're doing really well. Just keep in mind that whatever cr@p feeling you have right now, it isn't permanent. It WILL get better.
That said I'm not much help as I feel sad, lonely and scared today as well.
NYGal, have you tried st john's wort? It helped me a lot in the early days after BD. I broke down twice at work too but was fast enough to make it to a secluded toilet.
That was before gorgeous lash extensions though. Now, I am less inclined to cry because I don't want to ruin my extensions. Vain, inane things like that help me get by little by little.
You were doing fine for your GAL. Anything you can do to ramp up your GAL?
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
