Ok so the title is fitting perfect right now. I know it is due to the situation with kids possibly being around what I am mind reading into some kind of relationship.
It is just fresh. I am missing her and the family. I try to remember what things were like leading up to BD and how I was looking to make our relationship better but she was prob already checked out and I was just doing damage. I try to remember how bad that felt and say why would you want that. I try to tell myself she has to be wrapped up in someone new since she can't be bothered to call and say goodnight to kids.
I do all of this but I still want things to work.
I want to break the no contact so bad. I know I seen so cold at child exchanges as I basically ignore her. But I can't bare to look at her.
Funny thing is they I am fine when I am alone without the kids. I just become so busy. But when I have kids and we have down time I just look at them and the mind starts going.
Where am I going with this? No clue. Figured better here than anywhere else b
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
