OTW
I went back and read your sitch and very similar to mine in terms of ILYBNILWY and had warning signs years ago of both of us being in a bad place, tried so MC and had ups and downs.

It's hard with kids as anyone who is going through something like this can't just focus on the kids and be "present". I find myself with a temper that should not be there with my daughter and have caught myself a few times now.

Have you had to interact more with W with the kids lately causing you to have the dreams and not feeling great? i find the more I have to interact, the worst things are for me too

Keep your head up.

_________________________
Me-48
Spouse-WAW 52
Married for 10 years
D7
ILYBNILWY 7/15
Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial
She files 1/2016
Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....