It seems a lot of us are down today. I just want to cry and cry. I can't believe this all has happened. I want to have hope for a reconciliation, but the days and hours just drag by. On Friday my boss gave me a stern warning about crying at work. Sometimes it just seems hopeless. If I lose my job I don't know what I'll do.

I used to have a full and busy life and now I'm just a mess.

I have to remember: the affair can't last if she already has "major concerns". We had such a sweet and tender relationship and we loved each other deeply. We will get another chance. I have to believe these things or I don't know how to keep getting up every morning and trying. And I have to keep getting better. I have to.

11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker
Reconciling since late April 2016
Don't give up until it's time, then move on
Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat