I realized not long after I saw her vehicle there that I already KNEW about everything so really nothing had changed. Even though I knew that, it took me a few hours to actually convince myself of it. Nothing has changed.
I had tried really hard to believe that he had gone to the Dr and gotten some antidepressants and was actually taking them. I tried to believe that ... he seemed to be having less contact with OW, etc was because he was actually taking the AD and was starting to realize what he is doing and that his thinking is screwed up which might bring him a little closer to turning back to me. When I saw the vehicle there, it was like suddenly that dream was crushed along with my heart.
MB, we are in a similar spot. I was having such a bad night I couldn't even get on here, but if I had seen your posts, I would have kept you company. Saturday nights are the worst because I know (well, I assume) they are together in our bed. It drives me crazy. I couldn't stop crying last night, and stayed up way too late. When I didn't see OW at the game, I fool myself into believing they aren't seeing a lot of each other. But I have no idea. I keep thinking maybe she will realize the mistake she has made, but it doesn't happen.
I feel like I had an amazing life, with someone I adored, and now it's gone in an instant. I know they all say it will get better, and I suppose after a great deal of time has passed it will. But will it ever get great again? And can I survive the process intact? That's what I don't know.
MB, I guess we just have to keep going. Let's remind each other: these affairs WILL NOT last. Our WAS's will wake up one day. They WILL miss us. We WILL be awesome. They WILL come back to stay. We will be happy again. If it gets us through, why can't we just believe???
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
