I know I need to keep putting on a happy face. I know I can't talk to her. I know I can't talk to her family about her. The thought just keeps creeping through my head to ask her sister or mom if they know how she is doing. That is not following the rules tho. I would be doing it in hopes to hear she is miserable. Misses me. Anything positive. Anything the other way would make it worse I know. So it's best to leave it alone. Assume she is having the best day of her life. That I am the furthest thing from her mind. And that I need to do the same.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
