Here again after 9 years and struggling 3

[Irish M]

Hi Inpain

Just want to say I understand how you are feeling.

Your world has been rocked. You are at the beggining of all this in its early stages. Still a newbie even if it's the 2nd time around. Hard to disconnect and get your strength up. It took me a while in the beggining I was in total shock. You will have ups and downs and it may get worse before it gets better.

Some of the advise you are getting here may be a little too direct and rough. They are here to help you. I suggest you reread all your post and then take notes on the advise that you have received. Read the success stories. Make sure if you write something down on paper lock it up. Your H is in your home sometimes, you don't want him to find it. Also your computer or tablet lock it down.

You are still trying to understand your H. There is nothing to understand.

Hope your kids are doing well. You are their rock.

Your sitch is like mine. 2nd time around and we are still standing for our families.
Your kids come first and you want them to have the family unit. I admire that.

Keep pushing on. You are getting stronger if you believe it or not. I see it
Hugs

Irish