WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE Part II

[trumpet]

Zues,

I keep coming back to your words of wisdom. To emotionally let go. I have in a way - the tears I've had are for my kids. But I have to really detach, which is why I started moving things out of the bedroom last night. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.

Just like the girl I dated for 4 years, I'll always love her, care about her, but she moved on from me, and I moved on from her. My wife and I started dating 3 months later.

I got excited thinking about buying my own place today. Looked up what it might cost to get a small house here in Madison or in a neighboring satellite town. I could do it. I'm debt free except for the house right now. If the wife wants the house, take it! I'll just take the equity, if any, and move on.

Getting excited about doing things FOR MYSELF is exactly what I need right now.

Dealing with addiction, I have found contentment within myself. I am fulfilled right now with my kids. I now have a few key friend relationships that I've started back up. They told me to call anytime. Most are local. I can have a beer with them and they will listen. I have a great church. I have my parents within driving distance. I have my health. My kids are healthy. They have tons of talent.

All of these things are good. And make me smile.

More and more of me thinks I will be just fine. Is some of this fake? I don't care. Enjoying this part of the roller coaster.