It seems like she is deeply angry and resentful of me. She said it was because I behaved like an a$$hole. I think it is deeper then that. I think she resents marrying me and putting her in this circumstance. It feels like she has rejected me and all I touch. If she feels that strongly against me and my existence how does she ever soften her view?
Mu, I think she is angry with herself. She is stuck and you are the scapegoat. You have let yourself be the scapegoat for a long time, maybe now that you are stepping out of that position she will have to deal with her anger in a way that is more genuine and will help her to grow. Or maybe not. Either way, if you let go of this burden your life will only get better. That is all you can do. Better get prepared Mu, the party bus is in the works.
