Hi. I think I'm like everyone in January, feeling a bit low and not too optimistic about the future.Haven't had contact with W except for Friday when she texted me to pass on a message and finished with kissy face icon. Realised then I'm not nearly over her as I was pleased to hear anything from her. Sticking to not initiating any contact but I do find myself missing her and wishing things were different. She's now on holiday with OM and staying with his sister in an island appartment so I'm trying to avoid speculating about them. She still has minimal contact with S, collects him a couple of times a week and that's it. I'm sure she texts him frequently but he never mentions it. Next month I start a few cookery classes but at the moment just busy working and being with a teenage S.Trying to find sometime each day for mindfulness which at least helps me to stop beating myself up and dwelling on things too much. Reading other threads makes me realise that I'm relatively lucky that things are amicable but I feel in limbo as I haven't given up on W even though I know it is highly unlikely that things will ever change. She would love to have me as a best friend which I just can't do at the moment. A bit lonely at the moment as most friends and colleagues have their own families and lives to be getting on with. Still can't complain and who knows what the future will bring? Life is full of surprises as we all know!
