Why wouldn't she go and visit? She's an old work colleague and knows everyone on the team. I would go if I were her. I'd be beyond excited.

I also think he's in full running away from his problems mode. He has been for about three and a half years now, with his work having taken him all over the world with barely any time at home in between (a couple of odd weeks here and there during that time, tops).

He's been getting high on that particular adrenalin rush for the past three and a half years, and it's been getting more and more intense, more and more frenzied on his part.

He's already collapsed once - just over three years ago - and ended up in hospital. Doctors couldn't work out what was wrong with him. Said in the end it was some sort of virus he'd picked up when he was working in South America. I now think it was to do with the first EA and OW 1, as that happened just before he collapsed. I reckon it was more to do with his guilty conscience. He thought he could leave it behind in South America, and he didn't realise it would travel back home with him.

The adrenalin rush he's chasing is to do with being in lots of new places, one after the other, without much time to stop and think, or time to come back down to earth. That adrenalin rush is also to do with him being a major part of something that's been incredibly successful, and getting lots of attention wherever he's been because of it (including attention from OW 1 and OW 2). And there has been *a lot* of alcohol and drugs in there too, another kind of high.

So I reckon the next few months are gonna be *all* about him running away. This time round without me there, either with him or at home, as his wife (although we're still legally married).

Then he'll come back here.


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017