Hanging in there with hope

[Tamjakr]

With divorce busting it talks about how to act positive, calm and friendly when interacting with H. I haven't even had a chance to do that lately. My problem right now is that I've been very good about no contact except for short replys about pick up or drop offs with my son. I haven't seen my H or spoken to him since last Monday. It's so hard. It seems like going dark is pushing him closer to OW whom he's with. I hope this non pursuit and detachment helps me personally but I really do what things to get better between us. My biggest fear is she will move in with him. I have been GALing, doing this 180 of no pursuit and he's probably not even caring. I know it's for me but deep down I'm doing this for results of reconciliation. Tonight I'm taking my son with a group of friends to his first homecoming dinner and dance. I'm excited but it's bittersweet without H.